I don't know if there is a truer word to explain how I feel at the moment. I type this from my room in Nelson BC on the eve of my last night of yoga teacher training.
Raw, vulnerable, shaken, exhausted! Yet in all of this intense work my mind is clear, my stress level is at an all time low, my heart is just bursting with love! This to me is the true essence of what yoga really is.
I started doing yoga many years ago not thinking it would one day open my eyes but because it was a great physical work out, yet something within this 'work out' was different than going to the gym, running, cycling, you name it. I kept feeling compelled to go deeper and now that I have I look back on my life, my thought patterns and wonder if there is one ounce of who I thought I was left! Pretty profound stuff.
I'm not upset at the mistakes I have made, and believe me there have been alot of them! I am thankful to each and every one of them to teach me, and without hitting rock bottom I never would have opened myself to yoga in the way that I have now.
Yoga creates a contraction that leads to expansion. The deeper the contraction, the more vulnerable one becomes, the more meaningful the expansion is on the other end of the hill. The clearer thought, emotion, life, love all becomes. All from reaching towards my mat and allowing myself to be vulnerable.
That vulnerability tears at me as layer upon layer I feel my core is revealed. Emotions that I kept tucked away believing I was protecting myself gone to expose new awakenings. A bit esoteric I know but I find it difficult to put to words what this journey has meant to me.
I am so excited to share this wealth of knowledge through movement, breath, voice and energy. A truly amazing experience!