I know, Winter doesn't officially begin in just over a couple of weeks, but what I'm talking about is the Christmas season and all that it brings.
The shopping, the spending, the organizing of time, rushing through crowds, and the anxiety of how much to spend, will they like it!
It can all get a bit overwhelming to say the least.
I find that at this time of year my emotions can get the better of me, fear, sadness, anxiety. In years past I have barely kept myself together, counting down the days until Christmas was over. My practise would go the way side, trying to utilize my time more wisely. By the time the big day came I was so stressed there was little enjoyment over what this whole season is suppose to bring.
Where did the excited feeling of opening gifts as a child go?
How did I lose the joy?
What I have found is that by removing my practise, my grounding, fear crept in. What if they don't like it, what if they spend more than me, what if, what if, what if!
Last year had changed all of this thinking. why? Because I didn't lose my practise. Some days it was an hour, some days it was only 10 minutes. But with the conscious effort to stay grounded the fear stayed away.
I am continuing to practise this year, and even though I can feel those familiar emotions trying to bubble up, I stop and take a breath and ask myself why? There is always an answer.