It has been quite a week in my small community. So much energy, both good and bad. And where we choose to focus our energy, that can seem like an impossible thing at times. At times it can feel like we are observers of emotions just along for the ride, hoping that control isn't lost.
Control, the sense of the word brings shivers to my body. All of us wandering though life trying to keep control of our surroundings, our emotions, or money, our lives. Just when we think all our ducks are in a row one of them steps out of line and we rush back to try and keep everything calm and in order, over and over again.
How do you react when control is lost? Regardless of what the loss is what you start to feel is your heart rate rise, your breathing change, becoming shallow, only breathing into the collar bones, panic sets in, worry, erratic thoughts of how can calmness and 'control' be obtained again to the point of a panic attack, an angry outburst, blame, mistrust, and a complete sense of loss of control.
I place the words 'your' and 'you' into this last paragraph hoping to broaden an audience but what I truly mean is 'me'. I am speaking from personal experience, my own personal battles, my own loss of control.
I once read without pain and suffering we would never understand what happiness is. This was like an epiphany for me that helped me to start seeing the 'good times' and focus on them instead of always turning my energy and focus on the negative, the worry, the what if's. With this realization came such a sense of calm and a complete change in how I viewed yoga and what it has to offer.
I pulled back from my practise, making it simple and slow, removing the speed and thoughts of how I perceived others perceiving me, and just moved into an Asana for how it feels. I stopped doing and started being.
Its from this point I teach from.
Let go of where you think you 'should' be and just accept where you are at this moment. Let go of what we truly have no control over, and that is just about everything, embrace those in times of need, and don't sweat that small stuff, sweat in class instead.